Their key findings are:
- Adam’s spreadsheet contained exactly 400 names. He included mass murders dating back to 1786. There are 17 categories. There was no commentary in the spreadsheet and no sign that he was specifically interested in any particular shooter.
- Adam had a connection to one of the victims of the shooting. He worked with Mary Sherlach when he attended Sandy Hook Elementary School.
- In a third grade journal, Adam wrote about many happy moments in his life. This includes when his parents bought him Skippy the Hamster. Adam wrote how he wanted to become a farmer when he grew up.
- Adam wrote a whole paper about how on a summer vacation in New Hampshire, he almost drowned when a wave crashed down on him at the beach.
- Essays that Adam wrote in middle school showed that Adam was “deeply troubled by feelings of rage, hate and murderous impulses.”
- When Adam was 3 years old, he had issues with speech and would begin hitting, spitting and crying when he could not make his needs known.
- In the document “Me” Adam wrote: “Relationships have absolutely no physical aspect to me, all that matters is communication.”
- Adam wrote in a writing called “Problems” that “I am unable to distinguish between my problems because I have too many.”
- Adam wrote about his personal experience with doctors which he called assault.
- In a handwritten note, Adam wrote to his mother he was upset that “You were in the room while I was in the kitchen”, “my hair touched Ryan’s towel in the morning”, “there were too many dirty dishes” and etc.
- Adam wrote “I incessantly have nothing other than scorn for humanity,” he wrote in what appears to be an online communication with a fellow gamer. ”I have been desperate to feel anything positive for someone for my entire life.”
- Adam refused to visit his father’s Stamford, Connecticut home.
- Adam was irritated that his brother frequently came home while he attending Quinnipiac University.
- Adam stopped playing the saxophone because “All played badly. No one practiced. No one paid attention.”
- Adam wrote a list of 53 reasons to stay skeletally thin. This list was directed at a girl he was communicating with online. One of the 53 reasons was “I want to walk through the snow and leave no footprints.”
- After Adam left St.Rose of Lima he wrote “It appears as though this is a cult which has disassociated from society, but a closer inspection reveals it to be Saint Rose School … It still has the effect of a cult on its followers, however.’’
- In the document “Me”, Adam expresses romantic feelings towards someone online “I am capable of boundless affection. I had never been in a situation to feel that way before, so I thought that it was special … I took my focus away from myself and directed it toward you,”
- Adam’s ideal companion: “She needs to be contemplative, introverted, introspective, insubordinate, non-confrontational, able to communicate with me, and engage in banter. And I think I want her to be at least vegetarian.”
- Adam wrote about connecting with his own feelings: “Play, bit by bit, with little memories of delightful moments, days, years, places, people, ideas, wishes, dreams, stories, plans. Play with your imagination. See how good you can become at fantasizing. Imagine the people involved, how you deal with them, what you get from them. The next time you daydream, imagine that you’re free to actually live the experience you’re fantasizing — totally free of all commitments, obligations, and boxes. Don’t try to figure out how you’ll remove the restrictions; just imagine that they’re already gone.”
- On a mother’s day card, Adam drew Granny from the Big Book of Granny.
- Adam believed that he would be a good father: “I’m certain that I would be a phenomenal father because I would foster a free environment for my child. S/he would never do anything “because I said so. Instead of treating her/him like a pet that can talk, I would treat her/him like a little person who doesn’t know very much. I would not subject my child to my opinions: I would encourage them to think for her/himself.”
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